My Closest Friend

     Entry No. 14

             "What is the origin story of you and your best friend?"

        I have had many close friends over the years, and I would consider them brothers. However I have never had that one in a million chances friend. My freshman year I read the story the Inheritance Cycle. It was a book series of a dragon rider and his dragon. They were bonded in soul, and had a empathetic and telepathic connection. They knew and felt each others thoughts and feelings, and not even a word need be spoken. They were seemingly as close as friends could be, and I desired such a relationship. The ones I had at the current time did not satisfy, and I was left wanting.

      Due to many factors I slowly gave my self to deep sinful habits. After while I wanted to quit, and despite my best efforts I found myself powerless. Then in my heart there was a nudge to seek help, but for a while I resisted. In the end I listened, and with the help of my parents and a counselor. I slowly overcame the habits. That was only the beginning. Still I was not satisfied.

     Next I set up idols in my heart. I became obsessed with the Inheritance Cycle, dragons, adventure, and stories. I played three different MMOs, I was writing two different stories, I read on average 2-3 books every two week, and I subscribed to about three medieval RP sites. I knew something was wrong, but I didn't seem to care. Till finally I felt no peace, and I sought the advice of a pastor. He told me that I had set up idols in my heart, and that I had not put God first. I first denied, but I eventually I agreed. So I went on a nine day fast from all the things I did. That was first time I surrendered. Little by little after the fast I let go of one thing after another. That fast was the beginning of a long road of healing. I gave my heart  God, and he would not share my heart with any idols. I started to read the bible, then I did a bible study, and finally I started to memorize scripture. Along the way I began to pray, and step by step I surrendered my life to God. As I did I changed.

      I became satisfied with something that endures, and does not perish. I accepted Jesus into my heart, and made him Lord of my life. In doing so I gained a friend in who I can trust, who knows me through and through, and has proven himself to me. He carried me through the trials that were to come. Through the passing of my dad, the car wreck with my brother, and now the work load of my junior/senior year. I have an assurance for everyday.